It’s been about a month now. I have had a project since the first day of the quarter, but it seems that the project which I once thought was mine no longer is. I came back from class today to find an envelope sitting at my lab desk waiting to be opened. They were my primers. Three sets of them — sense and antisense.
Though it may not seem like it, I am really disappointed in myself for the results that I have been getting. I know that it shouldn’t fall on my shoulders because I can’t control if two proteins are to interact or not. I followed protocol and that should be what matters. However, tonight, the night before my biochemistry midterm, all I could feel was frustration over my research. I started my new project today. I ended my first one today too.
This is the first time I have felt so invested in something and to see it not work? Heartbreaking.
I know this is only part of research, and that I have learned so much from this month. But still, part of me feels as if I have let my PI down and my lab down.